OK... I had to know.
I have thought a good little bit in the past 2 weeks or so about my chances with Erin. The last time I saw her, she was laying in the same spot from when she had fallen asleep on my chest.
So, even after all of the "discussions" I had with Angela about all of this, I still had to know. Would Erin go out with me? Apparently not. OR not right now, I'm going to say. I don't think this is all over with yet. But I'm not going to wait around or feel sorry for myself.
"I don't think it's right!" kind of sums it all up. It wasn't "I'm not interested" or "No thank you". It was "I don't think it's right." I'm not trying to make excuses, but I don't think it's right either. I might not ever know if I would have had a chance with her. But I'm not going to take it personally. I know deep inside that I had a chance.
I also know deep inside that I still might have a chance. Who knows? There's bound to be other social situations where I'll be around Erin. If I detect even the slightest attraction, I'm going to try again. The hell with Angela.
So, there's still Sarah. I'm MORE intimidated by her mainly because of her Seminary "good-girl" background. But that's ok. That could be a facade. Or that could be what I really need. Or it might not work out either. I do have a fear of Mary Tyler Moore though for some reason. Oh wait... maybe that's not fear... it's just a mosquito floating around my head. OK Sarah, here I come!
